Happiness

I had a realization this week.   I realized that in spite of this back injury and how it has turned my world upside down, I am happier.  Happier because I do not have to drag my butt out of bed at 5 AM every morning and feed farm animals in the dark.  Happier because I don't have to go to a job that although I loved, still had it's stress factors.  Those factors were of course coworkers.  I loved my boss, I really did.  But what made her nice to work for also made her difficult to work for.  She had a terrible time with confidentiality.  We knew everything going on with every co worker because she would tell all of us.  I used to hate that.  There were times we were called out for something that really was just not a big deal and I would come home feeling frustrated and angry.  So I realized that I no longer have those feelings at the end of the day.  My time is now mine, and even though I live with constant pain, I think this happened for the best.  I have a peace now that I haven't had in years.
Do I miss my job?  Absolutely!  But I do not miss the drama.

So with my spare time I decided to go back to knitting with wire for a while and I made a beautiful black wire and bead cuff.  I love it.  I plan on making a bunch more and selling them on Etsy.

I wish you all a beautiful weekend!

I bet you guys thought I was gone forever didn't you?  I'll admit I've slacked off with the whole blog thing.  Been dealing with having to resign from a job I loved, being unemployed and dealing with the whole Workman's Comp issue.  I've never had to do that before and it has been one hell of an eye opener.  My boss, whom I had a good relationship with and who was fine when I told her it was workman's comp just up and stopped all contact with me.  So after 2 1/2 years of being a good employee I can't even use her as a reference for a new job.  I hate that people can behave that way.
On the farm front we've had lots of drama between the sheep and the ducks.  The sheep very badly want the ducks food.  We have tried everything to prevent this but they are determined and manage to get some of it every day.  The ducks quack loudly and beat their wings and the sheep are quite unperturbed by it.
With my back injury I have found that I do not enjoy the farm like I used to but it is something I am working on.  Trying to find the joy in the things I used to.  With the limitations I have I can't even really sit and knit for long.
I went to unemployment for a job resource meeting and they took one look at my restrictions and pretty much said to look for work, play the game, but noone is going to hire me.  Good times.

I will try and get back to a regular blogging schedule.  I thank all of you for being so patient.